Alone In Hardship

This week I learned that sometimes you're just going to have to be on your own. Despite what you may want out of life or how you expect things to go, there are just sometimes when you have to go it alone. I've been feeling a little off center lately, and looking at what's going on in my life I can see why. Aside from God...sometimes it feels like no one really cares for the affairs of my life. I've been challenged to take a good look into the hourglass and see how fast I really want the sand to fall. Is my life just passing me by while I wait for it or am I living it the way I should? Am I making the right decisions? Are people around me being affected by the choices I make? By the actions I take? I believe that the root of my feelings of loneliness come from the sheer gravity of my care for others. Most people don't know that I care, but I do. I suppose that when people don't care as much as I do it discourages me, even though it shouldn't.

I've been learning to encourage myself and to put others around me that are going to encourage me...to find people that actually care instead of assuming that everyone should; because here's the reality, not everyone cares. In fact, most people don't. It's a cruel world and most of the time people are going to do what they can to get ahead of you. The best that anyone can do is trust in God...trust that He knows what He's doing, and also, find some good friends along the way. Encourage yourself and find love in Christ and in life. It is out there I promise you that...as the world gets darker it gets harder to find, but it is out there for you. There's a calling for the Church, for Christians, to be a light in a dark world...in order to do this we have to find the way that we're supposed to shine our light. You can't shine a light if you have pain and hurt covering it up. Let God get rid of all of that first before you end up dumping your strife on other people. Seek counsel if you need it. I guess this is just a post of advice on my part...a lot of these thoughts are things that I need to listen to myself, but it's what I felt I needed to tell you guys about.  Don't give up when you mess up; it doesn't mean that God loves you any less.

Don't abandon yourself because you think all is lost. Hold tight and be strong...eventually things will let up and you'll get your footing again. To be honest, I haven't gotten to that point yet, but I believe I'll get there. Most of all...don't be fake. If you're feeling like the world is about to crush you under its proverbial boot, ADMIT IT. Don't act like you have it altogether if you haven't the slightest clue of what to do, because if pretend, it will destroy you. I believe that good leaders aren't fake. That's my motto anyway. Take it how you want, but it's what I believe. When you start to feel like you're alone lean on God. You might be alone for a purpose.  Remember that.  The sand is going to fall whether you're doing anything in your life or not.  Be someone who makes something of themselves despite adversity.  Be a leader.  Be a lover.  Be a fighter.